FREEDOM is not necessarily something that is granted or earned, nor is it just physical freedom.
It is a state of mind, heart & spirit that is uncoupled from cultural & social programming that restricts one from authentic self-expression & purity of Self.
Therefore freedom is always at hand. It is always available because it is a CHOICE.
You may be thinking to yourself that this is not true. This person (boss, parent, partner, etc.) holds you back, this institution (government, IRS, job, country, etc.) holds you down, or that some circumstance is keeping you from what you desire & deserve. But…
I promise you that this is all an illusion of the EGO.
If people like Viktor E. Frankl, author of “Man’s Search For Meaning” found personal freedom in a Nazi concentration camp then so too can we find freedom in any situation.
I lose my freedom all the time. So I have compassion. For you. For myself. We are all of the same ilk.
Almost daily I have to remind myself that freedom is a choice. No one is out to take it away from me. No one but my ego that is.
I’ll be dying under the weight of oppression of Self.
And then it will click. I am doing this to myself.
This is ridiculous I think to myself. Then I laugh. My vision expands and suddenly I am able to see a much wider view that tells a much bigger story. A story that I crafted…
And as the author of this life I have the power, the rite, and the freedom to retell it.
As I look from Universal perspective I will begin to notice that I am re-living out some childhood fear. Maybe it’s the memory of feeling ABANDONED & UNPROTECTED by my parents when my older brother was physically beating me. Or maybe it is me reliving the youthful “story” I told myself about the FAILURE of my father to notice me as an ARTIST and only recognize and honor me as an entrepreneur and businessman. Or it could be me attempting the insanity of having to be PERFECT because if I was perfect then everything would be okay right?
Most of the time it is just me reliving some FEAR related to SELF-WORTH.
Again, it is all an illusion of the ego…
We are all worthy.
This is our rite of LIFE.
And the wielders of our WORTH is always us. We can take back our power and recognize our worth at any moment.
Again, it is a choice. But it is a choice we must make each and every day. We must choose to recognize and honor our worth. And as we do this we are given back to our INNATE FREEDOM.
As we recognize our DIVINE WORTH we are able to recognize our DIVINE FREEDOM.
P.S. In regards to my family and past “terrible childhood experiences” I now know and recognize they were a divinely perfect part of my path to acceptance & forgiveness (of others & self). These experiences were also key to finding true personal power. We have all had harsh childhood experiences. It is our responsibility to find the power hidden within them. Confused about how that works…? Read this.
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“Those who bring sunshine into the lives of others cannot keep it from themselves.” –Sir J.M. Barrie (creator of Peter Pan)
Marching forward. Destinal resolve. I am on the path. 👣
I am living the adventure of my life each and every day!
It is full of glory & triumph. Not glory and triumph driven by the EGO, but rather the kind that concerns Self & personal mastery.
I am speaking of healing, growth, transformation, & evolution. Continuously.
When I choose to employ my symbolic and cosmic sight I am empowered to appreciate each and every moment (even the dark ones). Moments string together in a beautiful interweaving and divinely flowing pattern. 🌑🌒🌓🌔🌕🌖🌗🌘🌑
As I step back to admire my work I see the bigger picture. I see just how awesome it is what I have been making…
I have been making a BEAUTIFUL LIFE.🌈
It is full of wonder, awe, & connectedness. It all flows together making the most divine patterns that feed my Soul. Because after all that is really what human life is about right? Feeding our Soul the gift of “experience” in all its sometimes seemingly messy chaotic perfectness. Our Soul feeds on it all. It doesn’t matter what the experience is. All human experience is divine and perfect to the Soul.
Therefore it is up to us in how we CHOOSE to experience it all. We can choose beauty and divinity.
Or we can choose UGLINESS & SUFFERING... As always the choice is ours.
As we switch through the infinite facets of the mind we can continuously shape our very own experience. Masters of our own genesis.
In each moment we are offered the chance to begin again. Over and over. This process of creation & re-creation is our human birth rite. It is the obvious secret to a fulfilling life. Though most of us forgot this for long stretches of time. Or even entire lifetimes…
I know I often forget…
Suffering after suffering we perceive it as… Instead of continual birth, death, and rebirth.
Always, it is our choice whether we stay in our suffering or if we choose to begin again.
The wheel is always turning. Life is an evolution. For all of us. And we all choose the direction and the perception of this ever-turning wheel of experience.
So what do I choose today? What direction am I going? What facet of experience am I choosing to experience my life in? What is my vein of existence today..?
Today I choose FUN, AFFLUENCE, & MAGIC!
I choose FUN because I choose FUN!
I choose AFFLUENCE (abundance & flow) because I choose AFFLUENCE!
I choose MAGIC because I choose MAGIC!
What does FUN mean to me? It means life is an infinitely friendly & adventurous game that is meant to be played full out with HEART & SPIRIT BLAZING. 💓 🔥 And with a MIND open to WONDER, AWE, & FREEDOM. 😇 This is harnessing the power of the eternal child that always lives within no matter our age or circumstance.
How about AFFLUENCE? Affluence is the state of “abundance” & “flow”dancing together. Even the missteps, mistakes, trips, and tumbles are part of this dance. Because they always bring about new insight, new healing, new growth, and ever-evolving ongoing TRANSFORMATION. Even in the so-called mishaps of everyday life there is a perfectly divine flow of abundance if we choose to grasp the silver-lining no matter how turbulent the storm. That silver-lining is tied directly to the rainbow and the pot of gold. Grab it! Hold it tight! And let the STORM carrying you forth in your ADVENTURE! 🌪⛈🌦🌈
And last but definitely not least… MAGIC! Mystery…. Intrigue! Mystical happenings… Divine consciousness touching our lives. 🔮 🎆
Within magic lives TRUST. Trust in life, trust in the process of life, trust in the unfolding of our life, trust in others, trust in ourselves. It is knowing that when we take each step upon that HIGHER PATHthe next stair magically appears just as our foot touches down again. We don’t have to understand. As Roald Dahl said,
“Those who don’t believe in magic will never find it.”
Instead, we just have to choose to BELIEVE and the magic is always there to catch us. It is a SURRENDER to Self (with a capital “S”) and TRUST in the UNIVERSE. 🌌 🗽
In this magical way we are able to live life with Courage, Freedom, & Joy. Because we consciously choose to know the Universe is always acting and reacting in our BEST INTEREST. And as we surrender to the superconscious we do not have to consciously understand the way it works.
Instead we follow SPIRIT & INTUITION and are EMBRACED by our AWESOME, UNIQUE, & MAGICAL PATH!
In this way we get to DANCE through life! And when we fall… It’s all part of the magical journey and was actually perfectly coordinated, because all truly GREAT GAMES involve DRAMA. To be clear I mean drama as defined as a series of events having vivid, emotional, conflicting, and striking interests and results (as defined by Dictionary.com).
A life worth living happens through the beautifully cascading contrasts…
This photo was captured in the most magical way. An incredibly talented street photographer at Urban Imagery randomly stopped me in San Francisco while I was buried in my phone responding to a work email. In truth, I was doing my best to avoid myself and my emotions through workaholism. I was lost to myself and then the Universe intervened and pulled me into the present.
This happened approximately two days after I composed a majority of this piece of writing about Choosing Our Possibility.
It was a dream come true in actuality. For years the FashionRake in me dreamed of being captured in something just like this. The full disclosure is I used to fantasize about being featured in “The Sartorialist” quite often. 😎
Even more potent is the fact that I was having a pretty rough & emotional stormy day.
The prior day I had let my own anger and frustration get the better of me and I wrongly let it out upon my colleagues who did not deserve it. I am far from perfect and have my fair share of breakdowns. That morning I was still reeling from the incident & conflicting emotions.
Despite my tumultuous emotions… I chose the possibility of fun, affluence, and magic.
I even went through the effort of writing this possibility down that very morning in light of the fact I was personally having quite a difficult time in believing it.
I chose to forgive myself and was actually on my way to apologize to my coworkers . To seek forgiveness without to complete the forgiveness that I sought inside.
Something magical always seems to happen when one stands in possibility.It is like the world rearranges itself to act in accordance to the possibility that is spoken into existence.
Lo & behold my possibility of fun, affluence, and magic chose me back despite my emotions and a long-time dream magically came to fruition (in it’s own unique version).
This then translated into me being even more open to being transformed as I went from impromptu photoshoot to taking responsibility for falling out of integrity to those that I love and care for.
A day that had begun as suffering and self-oppression transformed into Self-liberation, fun, affluence, and magic. All because I chose.
**This is my living testament to the power of choosing our possibility.**
In closing, I leave you with an alchemical opportunity... 🌑🌒🌓🌔🌕
What possibility are you choosing for yourself today? 💫
P.S. After reading this you may be wondering if every day is magic, rainbows, and unicorns for me… More days than ever are now, but I still have my down days too. And I believe it is important to emote on those days so that you can be cleansed by your own emotions. See this article on sorrow for the other end of the spectrum.
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As part of my “public commitment” to living my vision of being a writer/blogger (for more info see here 👉🏼 http://bit.ly/VisionLiving)… Here is a creative piece of writing from one of my morning sessions…
Working Title: Chaos Contained Within 🌗 🌊 🌓
Let writing fill up my life. Not sequester me to isolation & silo-living. Instead have it fill all the crooks & crannies. Breathe lasting life into moments and memories. Let it be a balm to my emotions and mental agitation as it comes up. Let it be the freedom flag that whips around in jubilance during the storms of life. Beckoning to be reckoned. At play in the torrents of ever-changing weather.
Yes, writing is my salvation. It is my boon. My secret to really truly EXPERIENCING life at a profound level. Allowing the past, present, and future to coincide in one place. Free of time because it can just as easily speak the past as it can to the future all while being done in the present. This is one of the many magics of writing. It is timeless. Even if I were to come back and read this at the end of my life it would be like breathing life back into this moment, reliving it, re-loving it. Being reborn once again.
The tides of my emotions have been crashing with a sense of anger and violence the last couple of days. It is coming out in my interactions with my colleagues at work and the way I speak and think to myself. I’ve somewhat fallen back into old abusive ways. Time to nip that in the butt. A return to the growth mindset. The seeker’s way of being. What is the TRUTH in this experience? What is the Universe and my Soul attempting to bring my attention to?
Is it another opportunity to let go of more anger that was once buried but now uncovered? A time for further integration? Probably both and more.
So let the anger come. Let it fill me up. Let it roar inside me. And grant me the power and equanimity to shape and mold this wrath into creative outlets. So much energy in anger. So much opportunity in anger.
I have the wisdom now to craft this ANGER into abundance and positive creation if I choose to. This time I choose to. Plain and simple. For no other reason than I choose to use my anger for great things and positive transformation because that is what I CHOOSE.
So here we are. At another crossroads in life. Another opportunity to choose a new path. A path that will bring me further along in my own alchemization. And as the ALCHEMIST of my very own life I can be excited and happy. I can be grateful for all the dark experiences that have led me to this point.
For the adventure of it all… I can rejoice!
I walk as the Priestess in my own life. Feminine. Dark. Mysterious. Powerful beyond understanding. Moving from intuition. From subconscious FORCE.
I do not roar out loud. I roar from within so that all may hear. So that they may hear in the calm but powerful ways that we hear big waves crash against the shore and are gifted with peace & soothing through nature’s powerful & divine rhythm. 🌊
Chaos dancing in its own natural way. Beautiful. Bold. Unapologetic for its own majestic nature…
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Accepting & acknowledging compliments is a key part of self-love, self-approval, & self-acceptance.
Old me brushed compliments off without truly HEARING, acknowledging, or accepting them. Basically, I felt unworthy of any compliment and was unable to accept the love & acknowledgement others were offering me because I was unworthy of love & praise in my own mind. As within so without.
[Stepping into the light of gratitude wearing my ultra fly dragon boots by Android Homme. This is me practicing openly & genuinely accepting compliments in the gym outfit I was approached in while hoping the unknown woman sees this and reaches out to say hello… see rest of story for context.]
Today I lived a new possibility. This may came off as self-indulgent but for someone who has spent most of his life hating his own body this was HUGE. For more on me overcoming self & body-hate see: this & this.
This is the random conversation that happened today at the gym. It is verbatim as I was so shocked and pleased that I wrote it down right after it happened.
…Random woman approaches me with a small smile on her face while I am doing seated calf raises. I take my earbud headphones off and acknowledge her with a smile. Something told me she had something to say…
Woman: Excuse me, I was wondering what your main sport me is?
Me: Bodybuilding & yoga.
Woman: Oh really, I was thinking rock & mountain-climbing because you are so wonderfully buff. Please take that as a compliment.
Me: *Raising my hands in prayer & acknowledgment.🙏🏼*” Wow! Thank YOU so much! I will! 😄💓🙏🏼
In that short exchange she rocked my world, made my day, & transformed my life. I don’t even know her or even have a chance to catch her name. Nonetheless, she just played a part in my ongoing healing & growing self love & acceptance.
What did I learn, re-learn, & garner from this experience?
We heal through others. The Universe is constantly speaking to us through others and all mediums. This includes actions, words, coincidence, & more.
Taking the time and full presence of awareness to listen to others with true intent can fill you with LIFE.
Acknowledging compliments is a form self love & approval.
The Universe wants me to become a rock-climber. One of my best friends gifted me with a set of climbing shoes and a harness last year and I’ve used it once. I can also get free-training at the Stanford Climbing Wall. Ok, Universe. I hear you & gracefully accept your charge.
Challenge, aka alchemical opportunity, to you (the reader):
The next time someone compliments you stop everything you are doing and invest in yourself. Take 30-90 seconds to truly recieve it. Acknowledge the compliment and the person that gave it to you.
In other words, give yourself the gift of universal AND self love, approval, & acceptance. You are the only one who truly can.
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I want to give you my sincerest most humble & gracious gratitude from the deepest & truest parts of my Self. 🙏🏼 💓 🙌🏼
Because of “YOU” I am finally living my dream of living as a transformation artist & leader! 🌒 💫
I cannot even quantify what this means to me. Just know that by signing up for this newsletter you gave me the most precious gift… The gift of “a life worth living for.” 🙏🏼 💫 🙏🏼
Many of you saw my “Starting Before You’re Ready” video. If you haven’t you can see it in the link at the end of this email.
My shoddy home video somehow magically led to a 4-day professional shoot that will result in a series of videos culminating in an epically beautiful VISION VIDEO that will represent the essence of LifesRake.
You can see the first mini-prelude video here:
Here is where I am going to leverage the POWER of the HIVE to learn, grow, & transform infinitely faster than trying to do it on my own. 🔥 ✊🏼 🔥
How do you ask for & receive support? 🙏🏼 🙏🏼🙏🏼
I have come to realize that I *SUCK* at this… I’ve come to this realization after many failed attempts…
I get weird energetically about it when I ask people to support my ARTISTIC VISION.
I always feel like I have to give something in return. I don’t know how to receive when people just want to support me just because. I feel an obligation to “pay them back”. 🤑 ☹️ 🤔
I am sure this is all related to SELF-WORTH issues I still need to heal… 😔 💔 🤕
This has come up so many times for me since I started LifesRake. In my relationship. With my family. With friends. With colleagues.
I have mostly sucked pretty much with anyone I have asked so far…
***Basically, I do not know how to ask for & receive support in a way that leaves both me & the other person feeling enlivened, inspired, & fulfilled.***
Instead I usually feel GUILTY or ASHAMED for even asking for support.
I think I am getting better. Here is an email I wrote to the entire staff of my company that demonstrates me getting better… I think…
Nonetheless, I know I still have a lot of learning, healing, & growth to do.
I know pretty much everyone on this email newsletter is BRILLIANT💡 and I would like to harness this master-mind brilliance to transform rapidly. ⚡️ 🌒
Here is my ASK:
❓❓Can you take a minute or two to either email me or leave a comment on my Facebook Page & let me know your thoughts, advice, experience, & wisdom around how to ask for & receive support?❓❓
Even a sentence or two would be AWESOME!! And any links/mentions of books, videos, or other resources would be greatly appreciated too! 🙏🏼 😄 💓
Thank you for your time & energy! 🙏🏼 💓
In alchemy & service,
Justin David Carl | LifesRake 🌒
Not on my email newsletter*?
For context my nickname at work and among close friends and family is “Dragon” and our company is nicknamed “OMG” which is short for ohmygreen.
This is the email & work-chat (Slack) message I sent to my company colleagues asking for support:
Good morning my dear OMG-fam!
First, I want to acknowledge our illustrious leader Captain Kirk @Michael for always encouraging my personal growth and continuously providing pathways for it.
For as long as I can remember I have had this dream to be a transformation artist & leader. I didn’t even understand the dream until I began meditating & did Landmark (both gifts from @Michael & OMG).
A childhood friend offered to make a Vision Video for my blog. As part of my commitment to giving back to OMG I presented the idea of making a vision video for OMG to Michael as a way I could live my personal vision (transformation artist & leader) within OMG. He graciously embraced the idea. And the OMG vision video is now close to being done. 🙌🏼
This was a huge step for me. You see I come from a very DARK past… Aka Hollywood nightlife. In that world it was all about EGO, drugs & alcohols, greed, superficial beauty, covetousness, and the last thing you did was SHARE.
So even though my EGO did not want to share the idea of a VISION video because in the world of ego it would be competing with my own personal vision video for my blog… I did it anyway.
I did it because I am ready to heal. I did it because I have chosen to live a new possibility — the possibility of being a GREAT FAMILY-MAN. This includes my personal family AND my professional family (OMG). Part of being family is SHARING.
OMG has been my REDEMPTION. It has been my FAMILY to heal with.
Another thing I have come to recognize is that I still have growth & learning to do around ASKING FOR & RECEIVING support from anyone.
So I am using the OMG-starship as a vehicle to travel through this personally confusing & scary opportunity to heal around asking for & receiving support .
@Michael told me nearly 2 years ago that I should share my writing & my videos with the OMG team. Back then I was too scared.
I am still scared. But I am going to embrace the fear this time.
I wanted to humbly ASK for the support of the OMG-family to live my artistic vision .
I recently released a prelude to a vision video for my blog here:
I set a personal goal of getting 10k views. I’m a little over 8k right now.
This is me [your OMG 🐉 ] ASKING my family to support my personal artistic vision & goal.
It would truly mean the world to me if you “liked” & “shared” my video — “An Awakening Begins”.
Building a body of work. That is what I have been dying to do.
Or perhaps, I have felt like I am dying a slow death for the last two decades as I kept my artistic self locked away. All wrapped up in my fear, anxiety, & self-limitations.
[This is me refusing to face my FEAR, ANXIETY, & AUTHENTIC SELF — all bound up by my very own doing as a result… |Photo by Noelle | Undergarments by RLTD]
But I’ve finally tapped back in. Found new life. Answered a calling. To be of service. To take the experience & wisdom that resides in this human vessel and offer it up. To harness it and share it. Actually doing that. Putting it all down into writing, videos, audio recordings, and various other art forms and storing it on the interweb for anyone to access. This is what has been missing from my life for so long.
And now. Finally. I have found renewal & true life sustenance through creating & sharing.
Something I did so effortlessly as a child. But then I forgot…
I went on to live over 20 years of my life with his nagging feeling that I am not building and creating something of value during my time in the world. It created such a massive void in me. I’ve tried filling it with material success (money, status, etc.), drugs, sex, food, exercise-addiction & pretty much anything else that I can greedily over-consume & over-focus upon to drown out and hide from the inescapable emptiness.
I’ve recently overcome a lot of my past addictions. And by the grace of the Gods I’ve found a new way to fill myself up.
Since I have started writing, blogging, vlogging and sharing my creative work here and on other social media platforms I am beginning to feel as though I am filling that void that has left me feeling so empty & desperate for so long.
Do I understand or know where I am going? No, I don’t.
But I can sense the right direction pulling me the right way. And I am becoming ever more comfortable with the fear of the unknown. Learning to embrace and cherish the mystery of my unique journey.
Through this artist reawakening process I am coming to learn that the uncertainty of it all is what excitement is made of. At least a large portion of it is.
The sense of adventure comes from the unknown — the anticipation of discovery & learning during the unpredictable endeavors. I regularly experience the joy of this uncertainty now in my startup adventures here in Silicon Valley and am finding the same joy in my artistic creations now.
At times I am in rapture from the excitement of it all. At other times I am wracked by ANXIETY and lose myself to FEAR. Often, completely shutting down when the anxiety hits. Again, this happens with both my professional work & my personal artistic work.
I have been fighting my anxiety for most my life. Pretty much ever since I forgot my artist-self. The one I locked away when a teenager decided that being an artist wasn’t going to cut it in this life.
As I locked the artist part of myself away, I also cut off my access to the ever-evolving intuitive learner that loved the unknown, the mysterious, the puzzles, the trials, and the tribulations. The one who loved the uncertainty of it all. Because within that uncertainty lived infinite POSSIBILITY.
For the last two decades I’ve been shackled. Self-oppressed. Anxiety literally killing my life-force.
But now I am being reborn. An artist rebirth is underway. And the insight & self-knowledge that is being cultivated during this process is truly LIBERATING.
Finding my art, making my art, and sharing my art is making me a better entrepreneur, partner, family-man, and more! And of course the shear joy of living as an artist in all areas of life is something I can barely understand & appreciate yet, but it feels AWESOME! And I know it’s only going to get better the more I embrace it. It is like…
TRUE AFFLUENCE: abundance & flow working together in synergy & synchronicity.
One of the biggest lessons that has come from this reawakening process is my understanding and beliefs around the infamous state of ANXIETY. This dark thing that seems to rob the joy of life from many of us. 🌑
Here is what I’ve learned about this dark state we call ANXIETY:
** Anxiety is just another facet of the same diamond that “excitement” also lives within. **
I am just an excited Spirit. A Spirit and Soul that is so electrified to be here on earth that if I am not directing my abundant energy into noble endeavors I am wracked with anxiety letting me know that my energy is not focused and directed in the right spectrum.
No wonder that after spending two decades suppressing my artist-self my anxiety had built to a point where I was left feeling so anxious that death seemed like a far better option. It was literally boiling up inside of me. Trying to show & tell me something. And it was either going to get me to listen or kill me trying.
And this leads me to the next powerful paradigm shift I’ve recently come to understand & embrace:
** Anxiety is a guidance system of “right action” and “right intent”. It is also a barometer for one’s current level of self-acceptance, self-worth, and ultimately… the state of one’s SELF-LOVE. **
The more “in tune” I am with myself and acting in accordance with Divine Will the less anxiety I have. The more I unconditionally love myself despite the ever-changing weather of life the more anxiety fades and something new & empowering comes in.
When I am fully inline with Divine Will I have no anxiety. Only pure joyful excitement. Anxiety is literally transmuted into usable positive energy to thrive in the adventure of life. I go from being completely shut down, being killed by my own life to…
Energy bursting forth like a waterfall that cannot be contained. Mesmerizing. Majestic. Powerful.
That is me when I am in alignment with my higher calling. When I am taking the “right” intuitive steps towards my own apotheosis. Even when it doesn’t make rational sense. When I can flow with my higher self who doesn’t operate from the limitations of rational-thinking then I “know” and “feel” the right steps unfolding before without having to even see them.
Scary I know. But so damn exciting too! 😁
This is the gift of anxiety & fear. If we can face & embrace them they will allow us to heal, to grow, and to TRANSFORM into a higher state of JOYFUL LIVING.
As I begin to embrace my fears and follow them with trust I literally feel the anxiety transform into excitement.
It is so subtle though. If I am not paying attention, if I am not in awareness, I miss the switch. The line between the two is so delicate. So fine. Like balancing on the edge of a sharpened sword.
Yet, when I pass into the excitement as I surrender to the calling of my fear-sirens that same sword cuts the oppressive bonds of my anxiety and I fly free. I soar. I grow. I transform. And I electrify everything and everyone around me.
Like the master pendulum in a room. So strong is my underlying force that I pull everyone in my field of energy into accordance. An array of pendulums that were all swinging in discord are now swinging together in grace.
I have seen this so many times when I am in my power. Bringing forth magic and laughter to a group of people. Amplifying their joy to a level where we can all feel it. And it is wondrous! ☄
When you can feel the energy of a group of people singing in harmony. This vibration. This movement of unison is something to behold! Rocking back & forth in synchronicity. An ocean of energy ebbing and flowing in unity.
It is dynamic co-creative fire setting us all ablaze! 🔥🔥🔥
What is awesome is that we can all do this. All of us have this power of being the master pendulum that pulls everyone around them into a higher state of being. And we have all done this many times in our lives. Even if it just with a few other people, or even one other person. We have witnessed consciously or subconsciously how our energy has pulled another’s into accordance.
The scary part is that this works both ways. Those with incredibly strong energy dark or light can pull a group in either direction. This is why each of us must maintain dominion over ourselves.
Ever interacted with a parent, partner, boss or great friend who is in a terrible mood or energetic space and then shortly thereafter find yourself in the same state? How do you think that feels for all the people you come into contact with after you have moved into that darker state of being?
How is that felt by your loved ones? Anger, anxiety, depression, and the like… those are palpable energies that can easily be felt by those we are closest to.
And because of this we must maintain dominion over our own energetic emotional state. This does not mean suppressing or denying your feelings or states of energy. I am a firm believer that we must emote to release and be cleansed by our own emotions. No matter the emotion, they always happen for a positive reason if we can recognize, acknowledge, & surrender to their healing powers. [more on embracing darker emotions and allowing them to free us here.]
When we sense our energy is dark we must be careful in how we are transmitting to others.
Out of love and respect for others we must open ourselves to receiving their lighter energy and surrender our own darker energy and flow with them. Thus we transform ourself by surrendering to another.
Paradoxical in a sense. But this is the power of communion. We are all here together to be of service to one another.
We must constantly work on our own self-derived energetic ethics. So as a world-community we are empowering one another through an infinite interplaying of leading & surrendering. Healing & harmonizing through one another.
We must hold ourselves in DYNAMIC DOMINION: allowing ourselves to be served by others when in need and serving others when they are in need.
In this way we all dance together into greater living divinity.
And in this way we can hold ourself in personal integrity, dynamic dominion, & have fun in life even when it gets turned upside down.🙃
What we need is the intention to allow creativity to create through us. A surrender to the creative force that lies within us all. The eternal ever-burning Sun. Do we hide it away in some dark deep closet? Hidden from all, including ourselves. Or do we open the door and let whatever reflections of brilliance are there shine outward into the world? What mystery and revelation will come bounding out of this inner door of light? It is so exciting it can be scary. I am scared. But once again I embrace the darkness with love. Transmuting it into light consciousness to cast forth into the world with valor. God grant me valiance.
I do not know what will come forth, but I trust the Universal design. I trust that as I tap into my diamond consciousness and the Universal Mind whatever is meant to come will come and it will be right.
I have been wrestling with my old self. My old self who says that I cannot live my artistic creative dream and have the rest of my life (and family) be okay. Or more succinctly, I cannot live my artistic creative dream with integrity and commitment if anything else in my life is out of order. This is the old commandment I have been living all my life. The wounded warrior character that never gets to do what his inner child artist wants to do. But it is time. Time to change my story and change my life. To recognize that my compassionate heart is strong. I can hold everyone in my life in compassion and live my artistic vision with truth at the same time. I have the power of the Sun ever-burning within. There is more than enough energy to create and hold all of my life and those within it in compassion. It is time to let go of this self-defeating illusion. There is nothing wrong with creating my bliss and sharing it with others while other aspects of my life are under the fire of healing, growth, and transformation. This is the infinitely dynamic way of life. An infinity of moving parts. I can trust they are all working together in a divine dance for divine evolution. I reach in and grab my trust and I wield it with a furious heart. Sun-fueled. Let me burn away this ice that freezes me in stagnation. Spring is here. Let me call forth new growth in all its green glory. As I shine this diamond brilliance on these frozen memories I compassionately watch as they melt away. Freeing myself from their frosty grip. A goodbye to winter. Spring-time veneration.
The Sun is here and it’s shining bright. No longer enveloped in the bond of my frozen emotions, memories, patterns, and DNA — I evolve. No longer frozen, I grow forth and go forth into the world and share my brilliance. Light-bringer awakening. Old commandment broken. Self-imposed chains dissolved. Darkness alchemized. Self-integration realized. Time to dance with freedom of Spirit.